The way of the world—rather, the way of the Web world—means that the talents and flaws of anyone and everyone who begins sharing thoughts, ideas, plans, brags, and screeds are revealed to all.

Inevitably, each writer who intends to explore and expand their craft by way of the Internet sets themselves up for the dreaded Archive Gap. What begins with passion and intention can often be slowed by the reality of life, all of those many things that draw the writer away from her work.  Often, this leads to self-recrimination and accusations of Procrastination.

For a writer–or anyone with a good intention to commit to an endeavor of meaning–Procrastination is a capital-letter word. If one wishes to assign a quality of appearance to a word, then Procrastination, a noun, is an ugly word.

What is it that we are doing when we don’t take action on a project that we say we want to do? In the verb form, when we procrastinate, we think we’re just putting it off until we “find time.” But consider  the Latin origin, procrastinare: it means to postpone until tomorrow. When is tomorrow? If you consider one chestnutty philosophy, the present is now, and tomorrow never comes.

In reality, though, tomorrow will arrive. The Procrastinator must ask herself whether it is worthwhile to defer the pursuit of her desired goal, to keep waiting for tomorrow, or rather to reengage now, today, and close the Archive Gap.


Nepotical Nephew

Upon first glance, nepotic, a rarely used adverb, seems slightly sinister. Could it mean the same thing as despotic, or maybe even necrotic? Logophiles may recognize that it is a form of nepotism, which today refers to the act of providing employment or other favors to relatives or friends, whether or not they are qualified for such rewards.

Looking deeper, one finds that nepotic has a close relationship with nephew. At first glance, it doesn’t quite stretch the imagination that a word defining a relative became associated with the act of playing unqualified favorites. But why a nephew, and not a son? The answer traces to various Popes of the Middle Ages who occasionally requested men of influence to employ a “nephew” who was actually the Pope’s son. More commonly, however, was the Papal practice of elevating any male relative to the post of Cardinal; an actual nephew was the most common choice. It’s no wonder that nepotism is generally held in such gloomy regard.

There is a brighter side, however, the natural feeling we have for those we know and trust, relative or no. It’s natural to seek connections for those we hold in high regard. When it comes to the youngest member of my immediate family—my 3 and ½ year old nephew—his energy and spirit have enlightened and delighted me since he was born.

I’m looking for someone to fill the position of junior associate of joy and wonder, a position for which my nephew is highly qualified. Yes, I’m definitely guilty of nepotism.

Memory Colander

As the calendar pages fly, our memories flex and change, some moving slowly to the back shelf, others flowing forward and easily fronting. What keeps the often-tenuous connection to the back of the brain’s library of life are anchors, those possessions, those things which instantly remind us of those memories, and those who helped us form them.

Sometimes, the anchor is obvious: an album of photos, a card, a voice mail. But many times, the anchor isn’t so obvious, even to the one holding the memory. And sometimes, it is the kedging of that anchor which prompts the memory.

Such an event happened to me recently. After decades of use, my old colander finally rinsed its last basket of dark Bing cherries. It was an unexpectedly sad moment for me, silly, since it wasn’t a valuable antique, just an old cornflower blue plastic thing, full of small cracks after long use. The colander fell off the dish drainer as I was retting up the dishes. One of the cracks finally gave way: when it hit the linoleum, a small piece, shaped like a miniature Ohio, popped up and out. A colander cannot be of much use with a hole bigger than that which it’s to hold.

It was a poignant moment, the making of the memory colander, since it had belonged to my late mother. She’d have been 74 the 3rd of this month, but passed at the very young age of 51. That old colander had been one she’d used, so each time I used it, I was in touch with her, whether I consciously thought of it or not.

The word colander comes to us from Provence, the old French colador, and can find its origin in the Late Latin colare, to filter, and from Latin colum, sieve.

While the end of my old cornflower blue colander marks the passing of its life as an anchor, it’s not truly a sad thing. Mom left me much more in the way of anchors, memories, tangibles. The old sieve, passed from one cook to another, is gone, but the memory of that cook, and the skills she passed to me, will always be forefront.

The Interminable Indeterminate

For the writer who wishes to be productive, a silent pen—or quiescent keyboard—can be frustrating, an interminable period, the end indeterminate.

The monotone of silence may be the ultimate destination for the average Eastern mystic, but not the mission of the average writer. She instead wishes to avoid the tediousness of the perpetual blankness.

Interminable originates in the Middle English terminable, an adjective describing the capability of being terminated. Thus, interminable, designating annoyingly, unending, and protracted, has its roots in another adjective, proving that even the worst droughts will eventually come to an end.

The time it takes that emptiness to cease, for the seeds of something–anything–fresh to be sewn, however, feels awfully indeterminate. Speaking outside of calculus and algebra, the vagueness of the null set page leaves the creative mind unsettled. Much like interminable, the origin of indeterminate is in the Middle English, as well as Old French, with the Latin source, terminate.

Ultimately, the interminable whitespace, the indeterminate silence will come to an end. One can rest, refresh, assured by the termination of the interminable indeterminate.

Invocation, Tefilah, Prayer, Du’a

These are the words of communion with one’s god, gods, or goddess, but also with loved ones lost to death. The ancients communicated with their blessed dead, the ancestors, who were believed to have transcended to an afterlife, a hallowed place much like the land of the living. An earthly Creator was fashioned, originally the Goddess, who was then joined by gods and others. In time, God was born.

Communion with Goddess or God varies in intent and intensity, form and spirit. Devotees seek a way favorable to their Creator.

Communion with the Goddess involves invocation, calling upon the Goddess for Her blessing or favor. From the Old French, “prayer” or “summoning,” through the more ancient Latin invocationem, “to call upon, appeal.”

Communion with Adonai takes the form of tefilah, an ancient Hebrew word. The meaning of this word relates to judging oneself, which speaks to the act of going first within before calling upon YHVH.

Communion with God is named, by moderns, prayer. Again, Latin forms the backbone, and through Old French, to pray means to “ask earnestly, to beg.” The noun form describes that which has been “obtained by prayer.”

Communion with Allah begins with a supplication, du’a, an Arabic word meaning “to summon, to call.” Classical Arabic traces to the 6th century CE, with deeper roots in the Central Semitic language family.

How does one feel when blessings are bestowed by way of invocation, tefilah, prayer, or du’a? For those who worry about these words, that for devotees initiate a conversation with their Goddess or God, they are not used as weapons of conversion, but instruments of love.

For one who is not religious, the act of another, initiating invocation, tefilah, prayer, or du’a will not offend; it is welcomed for what it is, an act of devotion.


Not a word new to anyone, a feeling familiar to all.  A disturbing emotion, certainly part of the primal lexicon of all mammals, driving movement, change, and evolution.  Abraham Maslow may have agreed that the feeling of fear equals in opposite the yearning for safety.

Fear’s etymological origin is as an Anglo-Saxon word meaning “terrify.”  Fear is a loan word, driven to the Old English shore during the Viking invasion. The fear of losing one’s home to a raging man with an axe to grind would absolutely terrify.

In modern times, one still may have cause to fear the raging man with an axe to grind. Un-self-actualized egos ignorant of the basic need to be secure in one’s body, home, and resources can destroy what wobbly security one may have been clinging to.

Fear is often a motivator, spurring reactions which may result in the preservation of one’s base, providing a place from which to grow.  From there, taking control tames fear, replacing it with purpose and more positive motivators.

Is the raging man afraid of anything? In one strange case, he is afraid of nothing except being wrong about his justification for creating fear.

Two Nickels

I’ve been thinking about finances a lot lately. Who hasn’t? In my efforts to make my dollars stretch as far as possible I started thinking about that old phrase about change, about being too poor to have two nickels to rub together. Started wondering about why one would want to squish one’s coins together. What possible benefit would that bring? What is the meaning?

This past week was a financially worrisome one. Moving small amounts of money between my accounts in order to pay bills and buy gas for the cars was an exercise in diminished returns. With pay-day a week away and without an active editing project on the plate, thoughts of pulling and stretching my money to make it fit took up more space in my mind than ever before.

Two lonely nickels rolled in. What would be the result of rubbing them together? Would a genie appear? Unlikely. Perhaps it had something to do with the authenticity of the coin, something like biting a gold coin. Perhaps the coinage could be used to spark a bit of tinder…tender, another word for money…that could fill the empty coffer.

Maybe it’s as simple as a description of the void left in one’s change purse or pocket when there’s simply not enough income to match the outflow. And outflow these days for most of us has greatly accelerated.